Seth: “The creative artist CAN be in somewhat of a quandary, according to his beliefs, for he wants to preserve the precious moment, the fleeting thought, the daffodils, the perceived insights. At the same time he often feels the need to stand apart FROM life, from the fleeting thoughts, the daffodils or the insight, so that he will not be lost completely in the moment, but able to form almost a second self with a larger viewpoint, who can then more clearly examine and understand the thought, the moment, or the insight.
The creative artist CAN be afraid of letting himself go completely in his life, for fear that he will become so involved that he will forget to stand apart, to look or to listen. Now to some degree that is Ruburt’s quandary, and to a lesser extent, your own.
You want to examine life, to experience it, and yet in some way find in time a safe dimension APART from time. What you want is a SECOND LIFE IN LIFE, in which to appreciate and examine life’s experience. The ordinary distractions of life immediately then cause conflict. On the one hand, they ARE living, these distractions. They are life. On the other hand, they rob you in time of that second life you want, in which to examine your experiences.
Now obviously, if you cut down distractions, or all experiences, there would be little left to enjoy or examine. You both tried to find a framework in which you could have two lives at once in that regard—and putting those two together is taking some doing.
Since you set yourselves such a course, then you obviously have a certain responsibility to both lives. They are your creations, after all. Almost all of Ruburt’s difficulty with time, and your own, spring from this basic quandary. For most people do not try that hard to preserve the living moment, or to understand it, while they are still involved with time’s physical package. Hence, to some extent your difficulties with “Unknown”—that is, with the notes—for you are trying to fit one dimension into another. A bold venture, and one that fits in quite will with your intents jointly to understand and preserve fleeting reality, and one that conflicts with your attempts to do this in the context of one physical time that passes.”
The Personal Sessions, book 4, Deleted Session May 15, 1978