“You live in a safe universe (loudly). When you find yourself in a period of distress, it is because you do not trust your safety. You cannot live in a safe universe and an unsafe one at the same time. You have to make a complete choice.
If you choose a safe universe then you may indeed find some old habitual ideas, thoughts or beliefs, coming to haunt you. Those belonged to the unsafe universe, and made perfect sense there—and there they still do. When you change your affiliation and find yourself now and then encountering such feelings; and they are always one way or another feelings of insecurity—then admit to yourself that while they made sense in the unsafe universe, they do not belong in the safe one. Literally, such feelings make no sense in a safe universe. They are literally meaningless.
Ruburt has recently used the suggestion “Infinite intelligence leads me and guides me in all my ways.” If you thoroughly understood what that means then you do indeed live and experience a safe universe. Your pendulum will give you the specific reasons for any difficulties, but behind these ever-changing reasons is always the sense of insecurity you feel when you believe the universe is against you to whatever degree. It works with you when you let it, and you attract to yourself all of those conditions that are cooperative to your ventures.
One point: I said that your universe was safe. I never said that it was perfect.
Now: when you anticipate problems from Prentice, you attract them. You do not know what would happen, pragmatically, if you did not imagine such difficulties, because in one way or another you have always anticipated them from the beginning. You had no such ideas of a safe universe then. There are people in any organization who are in the habit of sloppy work. There are also people in any organization who have fairly decent standards of excellence. But even the sloppy workers will indeed pick up your ideas of excellence, and try to translate them, finding even a new satisfaction in their work—but only if you think of what you want as a product, and not what you fear you will get instead.
Ruburt’s symptoms made sense in an unsafe universe. He needed protection, he felt. Your feelings about Prentice made sense in an unsafe universe, where you had to protect the excellence of your vision from incompetence. You can make that leap into the safe universe—just as Ruburt is. The leaping is a process of growth, so in your terms give yourself time, but do not equivocate.
When you find yourself at all in any kind of physical discomfort, quietly remind yourself that you do indeed believe you live in a safe universe—and this will remind the body, and allow it to relax.”
TPS3 Deleted Session September 29, 1975